Nightmares on lake drive

How is it possible for such a small sweet little human being to have such horrifying images flying through their brain at night. Reef had another episode of night terrors (or nightmares...im still researching the difference and what exactly this could be) early this evening and its heart wrenching. He screams and cries and it usually takes a good 30 seconds to wake him up..sometimes I run outside into the cool night air to wake him up and get his attention.

After doing some quick research its hard to say what the hell is going on. It's not night terrors because Im able to wake him but it's not nightmares because hes too young to form dreamy images...hmmm okay. Whatever it is, it is terrifying the bageezies out of him and me...seriously. Now, he won't sleep without being cuddled. He bolts awake if there's no skin to skin action going on. This is a BIG step back, I finally got him sleeping in the cosleeper crib two weeks ago. Bummers.

My husband is one of those sleepers who has full on conversations with you and has no clue that he did the next morning (mind you these convos are usually about something so weird and random I just agree with him untill he stops dream talking). I mean one night when I was pregnant he rapped out loud in a made up language while sleeping, woke up the next morning and had no idea what I was talknig about- HILLARIOUS. He sleeps really really hard. I sleep light. I hear EVERYTHING. I always have. I think Reef may be taking after Zach in the sleep department.


Anyone have this going on with their lil babes? If you know anything I would love to hear from you or your mom or whoever.



Xo

J

I'm not competitive, I just don't like to lose.

It has been FIVE years since I competed in a swim meet. Today I raced my ass off. And, guess what, I didn't come in last... I know right?!

As I like to tell Zach, "im not competitive, I just dont like to lose"... Yeaaaa, I REALLY dont like losing or being bad at something. One of the biggest fights I ever got in with Zach was playing Scrabble online when he was deployed...apparently I got TOO into it. Oh well. I play nice with others but when it comes to swimming... I cant stand to get slow times. Well, I got slow times but not as bad as I thought it was going to be.

I'm really fired up to get fast again. I've really missed swimming and racing. Especially open water races- those are super fun! They race in lakes here...gah....im such a water snob..Hawaii has ruined me. BUT I think I can handle the lake races, as long as I have wetsuit (yay for having a husband who works at a scuba shop that sells those!).

Oh, and if you dont think I'm a nut already...when I race, I cuss out my competition in my head...yep. It's what works for me. Then when we get out I always talk to those sweet girls I just raced and we laugh etc. I think I better stop this post as im sounding crazier by the second.

Reef did great in the bleachers with my mother-in-law. I didnt think to bring bottles so it was a lot of nurse-race-cool down-race-nurse-pour gatorade down my throat- race-nurse-race-race-cool down-go home.

I hope you had an epic Saturday. Does anyone else have crazy weird competitive tactics? Please, tell me you do so I dont feel so insane :)

Xo
J

Hello ol' friend!!!!

I'm soooo stoked. Zach's friend, and Iraq Battle Buddy, Chris is visiting us or a few days. I really enjoy hanging out with old friends. Chris and his wife Emily (who couldn't come with him, lame) were staying with us when I found out I was preggo! These two really mean a lot to us.

The day Zach deployed Chris walked me back to my car while I cried like a crazy person and he promised me he would take care of Zach. I. Will. Never. Forget. That. Emily and I became a support for each other even though we lived super far away. She was the only military spouse friend I had and, at the time, the only one who fully understood just how difficult this whole deployment thing was. So, needless to say I loooove seeing them when we get the chance!

I think I overwhelmed Zach and Chris with my excitement but...I mean...I have no friends here (well, we have friends but...you know they're really more Zach's friends and are babyless... I dont know how to say this and not sound bitchy...they're amazing and fun but im not quite in tne total comfort zone with them yet) and if it wasn't for face time and Skype I would rarely talk to my friends and family. Soooo it's been really fun spending time with a friend who "gets it"..like...I have two sinks full of dishes, my floors are dirty, I'm up to my eyeballs in laundry, and was wearing sweat pants and a gross t-shirt that reef puked on when he got here...but he could care less and honestly so could I, there's no pretense or impressing needed here and I love that about good ol friends!

Here's to good times with good friends!
Xo
J

What else do two geeky battle buddies do when they re-unite?! Build computers and play Star Wars The Old Republic of course!!

Puppy lovin

We have the greatest-notthesmartest-extrahyper-escapeartistextrordinnaire of a boxer named Diesel. He was my battle buddy and my first child. Yes, I was once one of those dog loving people. I made all of Diesel's food from scratch, he had epic toys, I took him to the dog beach three times a week, and he cuddled with me on our bed when Zach wasn't home....yea....about that...sorry Zach.

Then I got pregnant and he become attached to me. If I was puking at 3am, I puked all nine months by the way, Diesel would come in and sit so I could lean on him and he would lick my arm in a I'm so sorry this is happening and because I love you I won't be gross and lick the puke that is obviously in your hair kind of way.

Since Reef was born he's been desperate for that extra attention he used to get. Well, today I indulged him. It was so warm and cozy in our room and on our bed I just couldn't make him get down. Plus, he was being very careful with Reef.

Xo
J

Five months..no way?!

I honestly can't believe Reef is five months old...
The last few days he has been really figuring things out and has become SO interested in everything. Ah it's so fun!Does anyone have any suggestions for development games?
Xo
J

Getting Insane with Shaun T

It's no secret I'm obsessed with Insanity by Shaun T. I love it. A lot. The first time I did Insanity I lost 50lbs in only 4 months. So awesome. I should probably add in the fact that I was a healthy eating vegan, working four jobs, and Zach was in Iraq so I was stressin off some weight as well. This was me after college and before Shaun T: I weighed 182lbs. Blah.

This was after four months of Shaun T's Insanity: I weighed 132lbs

I've always struggled with weight and body image. I was a competitive swimmer growing up and by the time I was fourteen I was a lean mean swimming machine BUT I thought I was fat...I disgust myself now, I can't believe I thought that. I always had super skinny gorgeous to die for friends so, throughout high school I still felt fat but was no where near it.

I became a vegan at age 15 and lost A LOT of weight. People started getting all on my case about being anorexic or some crazy shit. Nope. Just swam 4 hours a day and didn't eat crap. That'll shed the pounds.

Then, I went to college and didn't have the means to be a healthy vegan. So, I ate vegan crap and lots of Pasta. I came home from college much larger than when I left but it never really got me down. As you can see from the photos I still got my brown on in a bikini often (sorry you had to see that).

Then, I met Zach. He loved me when I was fat. Yay. But, I wanted to be healthy and fit again. He was working out all the time in Iraq so I decided to work out at home. I bought Insanity and melted that fat away. Not to say it was easy because it hurt to get in and out of my car that first week.

Then, we got engaged and I was SUPER motivated to lose weight.

Then, I got pregnant. Stopped being a vegan and ate what I craved. I did what I felt was best for the little guy growing inside of me but I forgot how fattening cheese is and bacon.

So. Here I am. 180 pounds again.

I'm excited to announce that I have ordered Shaun T's The Asylum, for those crazy kids who finished Insanity and loved it Shaun brings it even harder in these DVDs. It should be here Friday and I CANT WAIT. I seriously get really into it and talk/swear at my tv. It's awesome.

I've also started swimming at 5am with a Masters Club (aka people who want to get a good workout in and compete but are over 18).

I'm also eating healthy and clean. No more processed foods and crap. No sugar. No dairy. No fat. I wanted to go back to veganism but am waiting to be done breast feeding Reefy.

Any new life changing workouts or diets youre doing? I would love to know about it. Lets support each other!

Xo

J

What, too much?

Remember that lil post I did on, ahem, balls and how my hand towels keep getting used on the males in this house unmentionables? Wellllll....I thought it was hillarious....so did my husband and his brother..and my mother in law... And I'm not funny often so when I am I get really excited....too excited..and then I become THAT girl.Apparently my father-in-law did not find it funny(although I like to think he did and that he's just not admitting it).  You see, it's usually just my father-in-law and I home for a few hours in the evening because everyone else works late and it's been fabulous because...wait for it...we're finally friends and even make fun of eachother(that means we're friends right?). Well he came home and I couldn't wait. I had to show him those signs. I started talking super fast, damn that coffee, and as soon as he looked at it he turned red and said "ummm too much information, i need to walk outside" at first I thought he was kidding...then I realized I had done it again. Too much. Ugh, when will I learn? Probably never. I think I somehow embarrassed him. Hmmm.Oh well.So, now I know. When it comes to my father-in-law Butt Humor is fine but go beyond that and you get the awkward eye.Please, someone tell me I'm not the only one who does stuff like this.XoJ<br />
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Ps on an awesomer note, Reef found his toes. Yes, this now gives me five semi-calm minutes a day