umm...i'm having a baby.

So I feel like I go through this monthly where I hit a new realization of "oh my god i'm having a baby" & then I usually cry and eat something (fat kid, what can I say).

I super cleaned our bedroom today and put together the co-sleeper we got and put up a poster by the artists Kozyndan (two of the raddest human beings walking this earth right now) that I got as a gift from my lovely friend Suzanne.

excuse Brie's butt in this photo...she was highly upset by the co-sleeper because it takes up some of her "space".

Zach:: A lei zach bought me just cause (seriously i'm so lucky)::Brie licking my toes (such a weirdo)::Diesel being Diesel

Coaching.

I love it, nuff said.

Lurking on Military Tuesday

I told myself I wasn't going to blog about the military. Period. It's a part of our lives and we keep on trucking on the daily. It's been a blessing and sometimes a huge pain. Talk about ups and downs.

That being said. I'm now going to do a little military type blogging. I know, I know.

I just found a load of photos I took when Zach was deployed. I forgot that I was such a creep and took snapshots while on Skype. We were so lucky to be able to Skype so often...I think the longest I went without hearing his voice or (if we had a good connection) seeing him was four days- like I said, we were super lucky. I know many military families don't get that much contact.

I spent a year in hybernation, call it whatever you want (most people told me it was unhealthy) but I worked four jobs and spent my down time talking to Zach. I lost quite a few friends during deployment because I wouldn't party and hang out anymore or true colors came raging out of people. Sad but true. I literally saw my parents, my sister, my best friend & her daughter, my clients & customers, coworkers, cats, & dogs (who died while Zach was gone, RIP Diamond & Nani)- that's it. But through everything I/ we became stronger and got to know each other on a level I never ever thought possible. It created such a trust between us that I truly cherish.

That being said...here are my super creeper pictures...

Zach sent me a giant stuffed turtle so I would have something to cuddle with (i have no idea why i put a medical mask on him...probably because i'm crazy).

We literally "hung out" on skype, i would read and he would play video games...fo shiz people, fo shiz.

oh btw i went nuts and cut my own bangs one night...yeaaaa

I attempted to set up zachs super human gaming computer (i went a little kookoo)

Such a keeper.

I'm a Waldorf Kid

So when I'm tired, sad, or feel like i just don't want to eat...I make what I call Waldorf pasta. We had this for lunch once a week when I was in kindergarten in the Waldorf school I romped around down in South Kona and it was my all time favorite and still is.

Since I'm fighting off the fact that I may get preeclampsia I had to really watch the salt & minus the cheese which made it a happy lil vegan pasta...that didn't taste as happy as usual but still hit the spot.

I ate it too fast to get a picture of the end result!

Also, it's gone from lazy/tired Monday to exhausted Monday...I mean...just look at the dogs...

Hey Jude

We had an impromptu Easter BBQ and I finally got to meet Courtney & her son Jude. Courtney is married to my husband's friend/fellow medic Jeff and just flew in from Cali with the lil babes Saturday. I totally admire her for having energy on Sunday, if it were me I would have been in bed ignoring the world. Zach managed to snap a few photos of this lil cutie & his mama.

Jude was mesmerized by Zach...we think it was his tall giant like stature.

Steppin Out

I haven't put make up on in WAY too long but when I'm throwing up as much as I had been I really saw no point. We went out to Buca Di Bepo for Zach's (late) birthday dinner [pictures soon to come] & I was inspired to attempt to look like a human again. [[excuse the cell phone photos...my camera was taken hostage]]

Top: Forever 21 [Mens]. Jeans: Bubble Gum, Macy's [i think i got these when i was 16].

Earrings: Vintage, gift.

Clutch: Vintage, gift.

Shoes: Madden Girl, Ross [total score].

Food Family Friends [stomach flu & Preeclampsia]

Ahhhhh, what can I say...my dad was here, jordan moved in, i got the stomach flu, & my doctor is worried and having me restrict my diet and what not because I am lucky enough to have some of the symptoms of preeclampsia- awesome, just awesome. Anywho...I have crawled out from under my rock of fun & doom and promise not to disappear for so long again. xo

My dad came to visit last weekend and let me tell you, that man is ALL about Sunday Brunch & well, SO AM I.

Smorgasbord of deliciousnessssss.

Jordan just got home from 11 months of Army training....needless to say he appreciated the food goodness.

Soooo yummm.

Fruit Salad, Coffee, Portuguese Sausage, Maple Bacon, Scrambled eggs (yes we put ketchup on them in hawaii), home made hashbrowns and bear claws. DEATH BY DELICIOUSNESS.

After we all recovered from breakfast we went over to Hawaii Kai to cheer my Uncle Ray (aka Unks) on at the end of his 39 mile one man canoe race from Molokai to Oahu. CHEEEHOOOO!
[Zach took all of the photos of unks because well, the zoom lens & I are working on our relationship]

I absolutely love this photo and am SO proud of Unks!

Brotherly love

This is my absolute favorite...lil bro showering off big bro after the race. To me they are 12 again & I just looove it.

Clearly the next obvious step of our day was to eat....again
Thank God for Kona Brewing Company..aka The Brew Pub
& thank holy heavens that there's one on oahu too!!

Greek Salad & Mushroom Pizza.

Clearly it was just awful....

Since we were on the southern tip of the island that we rarely get to we decided to stop off at some scenic points and take a dip (pregnant Joyce was WAY hot) & attempted Sandy's Beach Park but the shore break was HUGE & not a safe place for preggos...but omg had I not been pregnant it would have been on! So we ended up at the blow hole beach which is still one of my favorites :)

my face is getting large guys....seriously....LARGE

We were highly upset because The Blow Hole was divable (this happens maybe 3 times a year) and we had ZERO scuba equipment with us....I mean come one, seriously universe?! Not cool.

Last but not least (i know, super long post....bear with me) we hopped over to Uncle Rays to get some grinds and help him cut up some fish....well my dad did it all because he's awesome like that and I have no idea how.

Haaaaaawaiian. We lived off of fish that my dad would spear when I was young and I'll never forget my sister chasing me around our yard with the eye balls and my dad just cleaning fish and laughing.

Pau (done). All clean.

Pua. Zach. Unks. Aunty Deb. I love this photo to death.

I have maybe 2 photos of my grandmother. Some days she knows who I am and others she has no clue. She's one of the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, she's aged with such grace.

The Clarkes!